I can't wait for this week to be over. Or, more specifically, I can't wait until my Wednesday 5-6:15 class is over, and I don't have to stress about this presentation about Irish author Benedict Kiely anymore. Going along with that, when class is over, my professor has offered to take us all out to dinner at a local Irish pub, and one of the grad students is buying us all beer. I can't wait to sit back with a deliciously dark Guinness!
I try--as a rule--to avoid drinking when I'm stressed out, but I would kill for a nice glass of wine or shot of vodka right now....just something to help me relax. And I don't even know why I'm so stressed out!
Maybe it's because I just got back from Thanksgiving break, and I already have a ton of work? Like 3+ papers, a one-act play, and two short story revisions? Or maybe it's because I had finally decided I was going to take a year off before grad school, and now, on the suggestion of one of my writing buddies, I'm off on a mad scramble to fill out applications for a MA in Creative Writing program? Or, if that's not what's bothering me, perhaps it's the fact that I'm majorly crushing (against my will!) on a creep who keeps trying to seduce me, even though he has a girlfriend? I tell him that I just want to be friends, but he keeps coming on to me. And it's seriously starting to piss me off. Maybe I'm stressed because I graduate in just over a semester? Or because I still don't quite know what I want to do with my life? Do I want to be a writer or a librarian? What the hell am I doing?
Why do I always attract creeps? I don't even want a boyfriend....I really don't want to be in a relationship right now, but I certainly wouldn't mind a few pleasant dates with someone who's not a player, a creep, or a weasel (this current guy happens to be all three).
I think I'm going to curl up in bed with To Kill a Mockingbird, and read until I fall asleep.....that is, once I finish all this homework, first.
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| That was a LOT of rambling and stressing out. So, here's a cute picture of a hedgehog to make y'all feel better :) |
Hedgehogs make everything better. Nice rant though. All three? Gads! You do not need to be with that boy.
ReplyDeleteThank you, Steven :)
ReplyDeleteAnd yeah, this guy really is one of the stranger men I've attracted/fallen for. I'm trying to avoid him and hope he leaves me alone. We were both at a literary reading last night, and he kept trying to bug me until my big Russian friend joined our table. My creeper avoided me for the rest of the night, haha.