Do you guys remember "The Boy"? I talked about him a couple of times, before finally deciding that he was too hot and cold for me, and that I was better off without him? Yeah, well, I've been realizing these past few days that I was not as "over him" as I thought I was. And today, when he happened to come up in conversation, and my friend (who knew nothing of this) told me how funny and crazy he was....and once I revealed that I had a crush on him, she told me sadly that he was "obsessed" with one of her friends. She gave a name; not that it really matters; I don't know the girl. I managed to save face, but the whole thing hit me like a sandbag. I guess it was easier for me when I didn't think that he liked anyone, or that he was incapable of loving (doesn't that just sound MEAN? Omg...), or EVEN when I thought he was interested in one of MY friends (they always talk), because I could tell she wasn't interested in HIM. And even if she was, I could NEVER hold it against her.
Still, this was really hard to take. I'm starting to go numb, which is better than my original reaction, but as always, it doesn't feel good. I'm considering skipping my next class, because I have it with him, and there's only one person sitting between us. But, since I have another class in the same room after that, it doesn't make sense to skip; I'll be caught by the professor before you can say "Cheap Russian Vodka".