Not sure how many of you have read To Kill a Mockingbird, but if you haven't, you should, and if you have, you should read it again. I'm about halfway through my nth reading of it. I love this book so much it's not even funny. But, what is funny is the strange encounter I had with one of my writer friends.
I've mentioned this guy several times before. This is the cynical Russian who clumsily injured his hand fixing his car, and who injured himself the day he was supposed to take me out for an afternoon of coffee and chess. Lately, he's been helping me with my writing, acting as editor and moral support when I start to spaz. In short, he's been amazing.
We met up today because he wanted to read over a few of my pieces (I'm seriously considering a Creative Writing MA, at his suggestion, and he offered to help me prepare a portfolio). We were just going to hang out in one of the academic buildings, and then he suggested me grab a cup of coffee in one of the campus coffee shops. While there, we fell to talking over our too-hot-to-drink beverages, and somehow, the topic of my current read, To Kill a Mockingbird came up in conversation. And I asked him if he's ever read it.
Not only has he read it, but he confided in me that he discovered that he's actually the Boo Radley in his life. And I awkwardly admitted to him that Boo is one of my favorite characters EVER in literature, and that it was funny he should feel that connection. I was hopefully pretty casual about it, but inside, I was having a bit of a freak out.
I've been crushing on this guy on and off since I first met him. From the moment he first spoke in class, I was head-over-heels for him. I've calmed down somewhat, but there is still this gently pulsing attraction for him. Factor in that he actually wants to spend time with me (even though he is generally antisocial), that he offers to help me with my writing and actively seeks out my help on his writing, and the fact that he believes himself to be something of a kindred spirit to my favorite literary character EVER, and, well, things get kinda complicated.
Part of me thought I might just be struggling with my emotions after the events with my creeper, but now, I'm not so sure. I've been crushing on this guy for a year and a half...at this point, I think it's more of a steady crush than any sort of rebound.
I would try to ask him out, but I don't know if we'd mesh very well on a more intimate level. Besides being of different opinions politically, we're also on opposite ends of the spectrum when it comes to religion (which is a huge thing for me in a serious relationship). I'm a dedicated Catholic, and he's an agnostic who has tipped over into atheism. Why can't relationships be simple?