Autumn has settled upon my senior year of college. To be honest, I find it hard to believe that I've been attending this school for nearly four years now. Where does the time go? Seriously! I'm so amazed.
Sometimes, the swiftness of time terrifies me. And I'll be honest, I'm a bit nervous about graduating in May, and leaving all this behind. Don't get me wrong, I love being at home....I love my family and all the friends I can only see when I'm there...but I know I'll miss the campus, my college friends, and the freedom I feel here. Sure, there are classes and such, but it's been nice having a dorm to retreat to, and having friends only a five to ten minute walk away. I love the feeling of the campus in the fall, and I think that I'm going to miss that more than most things.
I know I have a few more months, but this is my last autumn here, and I want to enjoy as much of it as I possibly can. Ever since I was a child, fall has always been my favorite season. I love the weather, the crispness in the air....the start of school, my birthday, and Halloween were all in the fall (and in that order). It was and is a magical time.
There are so many things I still want to do here, but at the same time, I feel as though my time to move on has come. I guess what I'm looking for right now is a chance to stay attached to this campus forever, but as a student. I want to continue to learn, and to wander the campus, taking in every delicious detail so that nothing is forgotten...Like a ghost, but alive, and well, and happy. I want to freeze time for just a little bit longer.
And sometimes, I wish I could go back to freshman year, when I was just a naive kid wandering around to God-knows where with a frog-faced philosopher who made me feel like I could fly, even if only for a short time. True, things fell apart, but I still think of him fondly when I see our cherry blossom tree bloom in the spring, or when I walk past the bench and lampposts where we used to meet up every night. I guess, all in all, you could say I'm feeling somewhat nostalgic....and I guess that would be right.