Laundry Night

So, its a Friday night, and I'm stuck in the dorm doing laundry. Not exactly fun, but I did manage to get out today and spend some time with my friends. Now, I'm just waiting for someone to come down here and to PLEASE empty the dryers that have been finished drying for about 15 minutes now, so that I can put my wet clothes into one. I don't want to leave them sitting there for too long :(

To help me pass the time, I think I'm going to just blog and watch videos on YouTube.com :P Here are a quick scene from Dr. Horrible's Sing-Along Blog (starring Neil Patrick Harris, Nathan Fillion, and Felicia Day) that takes place in the Laundromat. I thought it would be fitting, considering the circumstances. Enjoy!

Can I Handle This?

Have you ever been in a situation where you ask someone something, because you want to know, but when you realize they are going to actually tell you, you're not sure if you really wanted to know in the first place? That's where I am right now. You see, I asked Odysseus to tell me something very important, because I felt that I deserved to know, considering everything, and I'm still waiting for his reply. To be honest, I'm terrified of what I'm going to end up hearing. I'm so scared...because I don't know if I actually want to hear the answer to this question. Perhaps, I should just ask him to forget about it, but I feel like since I brought it up, I should follow through. I don't want to shrink back from the truth, but all the same, it's one of those situations where I don't know if I can handle the truth...

Please, Lord, give me strength...

Librarian Jokes

So, I just posted a quick blurb about a reference to awesome librarians on MLIA. Well, since I've just "come out of the bookstore" about being a librarian, (at least with you guys...my friends have known for YEARS) I wanted to toss out a quick challenge for all of you...

Wanting to be a librarian is not exactly mainstream, and I get teased about it a lot (not bad teasing, just bad jokes ;P) and I can tell you that I've heard just about EVERY SINGLE librarian joke ever told. Well, here's your challenge...Come up with one I don't know! One I haven't heard! Are you up to the challenge?

Here are a few of the more memorable ones...

~"Emmy, are you going to wear your hair in a bun when you're a librarian? I mean, you already have the glasses."

~"I hope you like drinking tea; it's all librarians are allowed to drink."

-Professor Thomas

~"You're not mean enough to be a librarian." :'(

And my personal favorite....from Willoughby:

~"You'd make a wonderful librarian: you're short and female." O.o

Um...what does that even mean, Willoughby?? Seriously. (Someone needs a better sense of humor...or perhaps just needs one in general...)

So, thou hast thine quests, fine Readers! Librarian jokes! (and I'll post my favorites later on!)

I Love Librarians :")

Okay, so I don't know if I've mentioned this on the blog before, but I want to be a librarian once I graduate. I don't exactly know what it is...I love books, I love people, I love writing and literature and history...If I could live anywhere in the world, I would live in a library! (And besides...Librarians are pretty awesome! I'm sure we can ALL agree on that!)

Well, I was on MyLifeIsAverage.com, and I came across this story...

Today, I used Microsoft Word on a school library computer. My friend next to me told me that the librarians could watch the monitors, so I typed "HEY LIBRARIAN!" in 28pt. font. My computer shut-off, so I looked at the librarian. He waved back. MLIA

This is so much cooler than all the stereotypical librarian jokes that my friends and classmates tell me :P

Aeneas and Odysseus; Dido and Emmy

Yes, I know this is my third post of the day, but in my literature class, we read this passage from The Aeneid, and I was sitting behind Odysseus, and I just couldn't help but think of him, and of the things he had told me...

The queen stopped but he,

warned by Jupiter now, his gaze held steady,

fought to muster the torment in his heart. At last

he ventured a few words: "I...you have done me

so many kindnesses, and you could count them all.

I shall never deny what you deserve, my queen,

never regret my memories of Dido, not while I

can recall myself and draw the breath of life.

I'll state my case in a few words. I never dreamed

I'd keep my flight a secret. Don't imagine that.

Nor did I once extend a bridegroom's torch

or enter into a marriage pact with you.

If the Fates had left me free to live my life,

to arrange my own affairs or my own free will,

Troy is the city, first of all, that I'd safeguard,

Troy and all that's left of my people whom I cherish.

The grand palace of Priam wold stand once more,

with my own hands I would fortify a second Troy

to house my Trojans in defeat. But not now.

Grynean Apollo's oracle says that I must seize

on Italy's noble land, his Lycian lots say 'Italy!'

There lies my love, there lies my homeland now.

If you, a Phoenician, fix your eyes on Carthage,

a Libyan stronghold, tell me, why do you grudge

the Trojans their new homes on Italian soil?

What is the crime if we seek far-off kingdoms too?

~Virgil (The Aeneid)

Believe it or not, it was actually quite therapeutic, because for some reason, it kinda helped to me to start to let go. This relationship is very rocky right now, because I don't know what he wants from me, and I honestly don't think he knows what he wants from himself. So, right now, all I can do is just to pray for my Odysseus, and hope that all works out in the end. As for me, I'm ready to move on and see what comes from there.

Second Life Rant

Merrr....This is really frustrating...I went on Second Life for the first time in a few months, and to my chagrin, learned that they've changed everything around! I loved how Second Life used to look, from the notification boxes to the log in screens, and EVERYTHING is different! I hate it! >:(

Emmy the Lawbreaker

I was online checking out stuff on My Life is Average.com, and came across this entry...

"I found out that it is against the law to publicly say you are going to take over the world. MLIA"

Well, of course, I was very worried by this news, because I had always said to my friends that I was going to do just that; as well as telling Professor Thomas that I could really use his devious mind to help me in this endeavor. Now, I'm going to have to go into hiding :P Please don't tell on me! D:

Weekly Wodehouse #8

The cup of tea on arrival at a country house is a thing which, as a rule, I particularly enjoy. I like the crackling logs, the shaded lights, the scent of buttered toast, the general atmosphere of leisured cosiness.

~P.G. Wodehouse

Thank you! :D

Even though I doubt he's going to see this, I want to send out a HUGE thank you to Professor Thomas for really, really cheering me up today. I don't even know if he knows how much better he has made me feel, but I really, really appreciate his invitation to play euchre (substance free addition :P) with him tonight. I was feeling pretty awful over this whole turn of events with Odysseus, and like an inflatable pool toy for someone drowning, he managed to save me as I was faltering.

Euchre was a TON of fun, and both of us got hilariously slap happy. I really, really enjoyed myself, and it managed to take my mind off of Odysseus for a while. So, thank you so much, Professor Thomas! You're truly a wonderful friend!

Odysseus #7 (Ulysses Terminalis)

I had noticed for a time your distance
And perhaps I ignored what should
Have been noted.

You weren't yourself; you kept apart,
And I, so lovestruck,
Was more blinded than Oedipus
Or Tiresias, who though, without eyes
Both saw and knew all.

Perhaps, I was not blind, but stubborn;
I thought that I could make this work
I loved you, so you should be able to love me.

You were wasting away under my fingertips
Pulling back, but still tied to me.
And, I was so sure that we were destined to be;
But the Grey Sisters wove our tapestries on separate looms.

You came to me and told me that you were sorry.
You held my naked heart in your hands
And with the utmost delicacy, you cut it to pieces;
And it took all that I had
To hold my life's blood inside me,
To keep back the hot and bitter tears.

You could not look at my eyes,
Red rimmed,
But you whispered to the heart in your hands.
You told me I was wonderful, that you cared
But that your feelings were not the same as mine.
And that you felt it would be best if we parted
For a time.

I stared at my heart in your hands,
Frustrated and pained,
Though not surprised.
I had known this would happen
But, I thought that we were destined,
Because I loved you.

And you walked me around our island,
Trying to comfort me as you crushed my heart,
Almost offering me the pieces as an apology,
Some sickening sacrifice for what
Had been done to me.

And, I wasn't angry with you,
as you thought I would be.
I accepted what you told me, even though
I hated to hear it.

It was painful for you as well,
And I could read it on your face,
In your posture
So, I could hold you no grudge.
You are a good man, Ulysses,
And I believe you loved me,
But in a different sort of way.
All that you were doing was for me,
Because you could not bear to see me cry.

And, I walked you to the edge of the island,
Where a ship awaited you,
And just before you left,
You hugged me;
And tipped the pieces of heart into my palm.

I didn't wait to see you off.
I walked away, returned to my rooms,
The dank and gloom;
To sleep for ten thousand, million years
Until you come back to me.

~Penelope

~Calypso

The Lady of Shallot

For English class, we read Alfred Lord Tennyson's poem The Lady of Shallot and our Professor played this song for us. It was sooo pretty! The song doesn't contain all the verses from the original poem, though, so I'm including a link to the whole poem. I hope you enjoy!

http://www.love-poems.me.uk/tennyson_the_lady_of_shallot.htm

Snarky Translator?

We had to read The Oresteia by Aeschylus for one of my classes, and I have to say, I think that the translator must have had a sense of humor (or perhaps he was just being snarky). I mean, when Aegisthus first comes on stage after killing Agamemnon (sorry for the spoiler D:), he begins with a quote something like this:

:: What a glorious day of retribution!::

or

::O glad dawn of the day that brings redress!::

My translator offers this interpretation instead...

"O what a brilliant day it is for vengeance!" O.o

Umm....looks like Aegisthus remembered to have his morning coffee...

(And I can totally imagine him coming out of the palace, a huge smile on his face, planting his hands on his hips, taking a huge breath of fresh air, and looking as perky as can be! I definetly don't get this impression from other translations. It automatically makes Aegisthus that much cooler in my book! :D (You know, even though he killed the king and whatnot...)

Dorm Selection

Today's the day the Roomie and I get to select our dorm room for the next school year. We had it all planned out; the dorm we wanted was close to all the campus buildings, was similar in setup to the dorm we have right now, and we were hoping for a room on the second floor. Well, there was one sticky issue...

We had signed up for a substance free floor.

So...what's the problem, right? I mean, I wanted to be on a substance free floor! Well, there's only one sub-free floor (no alcohol or drugs) on campus for upperclassmen, and that's across the street at a separated part of campus. Oh, and its the third floor. We tried to change our preferences, so that we would not have to be restricted to this one floor, but Residence Life told us that we're basically stuck on this floor, and we just have to make the best of it.

So, the Roomie and I were pretty disappointed, until we realized that one of the BIG CORNER dorm rooms was open! The Roomie has already been in one of these before, and she tells me that there's a definite difference between a normal room and a BIG CORNER room. I'm sooo excited! I guess every cloud really does have a silver lining.

Weekly Wodehouse #7

Her eye swiveling round stopped me like a bullet. The Wedding Guest, if you remember, had the same trouble with the Ancient Mariner.

~P.G. Wodehouse

N.B. This is more of an English Major joke than anything else, so for those of you who are not familiar with The Rime of the Ancient Mariner, here is the full text:

http://www.fantastichorror.com/02/coleridge-therimeoftheancientmariner123.html

Random Survey: Emmy's Results

Hey Everyone! I want to say thanks for your eagerness to respond to my survey about your "datable other", and don't worry, I'm going to wait a little longer before posting the collected data, so those of you who haven't responded still have a chance to do so :) Because I already got a few people to respond, and Fabulea asked to hear my opinions (thanks!), I decided to tell you my opinions on my "datable other"...

1. Hair color: I usually go for dark-haired guys; dark brown or black. But, I've had crushes on blondes before.

2. Eye color: I love brown and hazel eyes; but recently, I've discovered a hidden love of green! (both Willoughby and Odysseus have green eyes)

3. Height: I'm short, so for a guy to be shorter than me, he'd have to be really short :P But, this also works in my favor, as most guys that I like are taller than me. I don't want someone too tall, but I like a little bit of height.

4. Sense of Style: I like a man who is all his own. I don't really care for the cookie-cutter characters. I prefer a man who is original (potentially a bit artsy) and not afraid to show off his uniqueness, just like me ;)

5. Pale or dark: I almost always prefer darker men. Latino tan is wonderful. I'm naturally very pale, but I'm totally attracted to darker, guys, and have found myself with a crush on several African American guys in the past. So, yeah...Tan or darker.

6. Personality: I'd have to say, sweet, silly, and cuddly :")

7. Age: About my age or a little older than me.

8. Intelligence: Smart is good, but not too smart that he makes me feel dumb :P I would say someone who is of about the same intelligence level as me.

9. Maturity: Appropriate for his age.

10. Wants kids: Honestly, I'm not thinking about that just yet :P

Thanks guys! Have a wonderful day!

A Random Survey...

Over the past few days, I have been talking to people about what attracts us to our "datable" other. So, I thought I would toss out this little survey, and see what you guys thought!

All you have to do is post your answers in comments. (this is completely about your preferences in a datable other...so, there's no right or wrong answer. If this gains enough interest, I might even post my own answers on here as well :D

Survey:

1. Hair color:

-blonde

-brown

-black

-red

-bald

-other (please specify)

2. Eye color:

-blue

-brown

-green

-hazel

-grey

-other (please specify)

3. Height:

-taller than me

-much taller than me

-shorter than me

-much shorter than me

-my height

-doesn't matter

4. Sense of Style:

-emo

-sporty

-intellectual/nerd

-goth

-punk

-casual

-all his/her own

-none at all

-other (please specify)

5. Pale or dark?

-pale

-dark

-medium

-other (please specify)

6. Personality:

-sweet

-silly

-dominating/possessive

-serious

-intellectual

-shy

-cuddly

7. Age:

-about my age

-older than me

-younger than me

8. Intelligence:

-dumb as a rock

-slightly dumb

-average intelligence

-smart

-very smart

-it does not matter to me

9. Maturity:

-still a little kid

-stately, mature individual

-appropriate for his/her age

-slightly childish

10. Wants kids?

-yes

-no

-LOTS AND LOTS OF KIDS!!!!!

-perhaps?

-what?? I'm not thinking THAT far ahead!

Thanks so much guys!

50th Blog Posting!!

I can't believe it!! This is officially my 50th blog posting!!!! Thank you so much for supporting me for the first 50 reflections!

Special thanks to...

My Followers:

~kiity.marie

~Gaby Ruchames

~Javmango

~Miles D

~Julia Rotter

Other Readers:

~Casey

~Fabulea

~FloridaNaturePhotography.net

~Chess

~The SovietChairman

~Suzy

~Ames4eva

Thanks so much guys! Have a wonderful day!

A Little Bit of Love...

Willoughby vs. Odysseus

I've realized something over the past week or so. Being with someone is supposed to be wonderful. Relationships are not supposed to be so hard to deal with, so frustrating as it always was for me with Willoughby. That's not a healthy relationship, and thinking it over now, I see that it would have only become progressively worse for me. If he thought it was okay to call me "broad" and "bitch" before we were even dating, I can't imagine what would have been in store for me if I was officially "his girl". <:/

Odysseus is different. He's always happy to see me; with Willoughby, it was always impossible to tell. Odysseus is kind, thoughtful, and sweet. He empowers me instead of putting me down for being a woman. He wants to spend time with me, and initiates chances for us to be together. Willoughby always made me make the move, partially (I believe) because he "could not be bothered" and partially because he liked being chased; it boosted his ego.

I don't want to rush into anything, but I'm very, very happy right now. And I can see already that this is a much healthier relationship than Willoughby could have ever provided for me. I'm not saying that I should be put on a pedestal, but I don't think that the woman should have to be the one who's doing ALL the work in the relationship; it has to be a give and take, and I was never getting that before. I don't know if anything will come of this relationship, but its wonderful, and I'm having the time of my life.

There is a man in my life who makes me feel as though my heart wants to fly away, and I love him for it. This is a shout-out to him, even though I know he doesn't read my blog... Odysseus, thank you for making me so happy! I'm so blessed!

Weekly Wodehouse #6

Flowers are happy things.

~P.G. Wodehouse

Odysseus #6

"Come with me," you whispered,

and took me away.

Far over the mountains, plains,

and rocky grounds of Ithaca

and I wondered if I

would ever see home again.

But it really didn't matter,

Because I was with you.

Hidden temples,

forbidden valleys,

and through the paths of arrows,

you kept me safe

and my heart rejoiced,

Because I was with you.

And you brought me home,

safe and sound.

And we rested on the jeweled sands

of the rocky shorelines at Ithaca.

It was far surpassing the Elysian Fields,

Because I was with you.

Thank you, Lord!

Sometimes, God surprises us. There are days when He decrees that something is just not meant to be, and sometimes, He pulls a rabbit out of a hat and gives you something you had so desperately wanted, but didn't think you were going to be able to have. That's how today was. I was feeling a bit depressed and "off" today, because I wanted to be with Odysseus, but I didn't believe that it was going to work out. Then, like a deus ex machina, he's right there before me, and suddenly, all is right in the world. I feel happy and at peace. Thank you, Lord for all you have done for me! I am so honored that You would have chosen such a person to be in my life, and I can only pray that it will last for a long time to come. I haven't been so happy in a very long time! And this relationship, at this stage, is more natural, more beautiful than it ever was with Willoughby. So, my question now is this: Did I finally find my Brandon in Odysseus? I cannot say for now, and I'm not going to force it. I'm just going to wait, watch, pray, and savor each and every moment.

Love and thanks!

Odysseus #5

the icy wind chills my heart and hands

and i only think of you.

hold me close;

keep me warm.

OH MY GOD! OH MY GOD! OH MY GOD!

OH MY GOD! I can't believe it! My BFF from high school is ENGAGED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMG!!!! I can't believe it! Congratulations, Fishy and best of luck!!! I'm so excited for you! I can't believe it! Love you, hun! OH MY GOD!

Odysseus #4

And we walked together

in the hidden caverns

and the treasure troves.

And you were so wonderful;

so perfect, my Odysseus,

and I wanted to hold you

and to be held by you.

But for the time,

I held you with my eyes,

for although we were alone,

the time was not right.

And we spoke of many things

and our voices mingled

like an angelic chime

and a plain sparrow squawk;

for I was not worthy of you,

but you did not seem to care.

And I felt such reluctance as we parted;

but the distance does not feel so vast,

for in my hand is a piece of you,

and in your hand is a piece of me.

Odysseus #3

god you are handsome

and I want you to hold me,

my Odysseus.

:-(

Grr...I sat outside for like two hours reading a book, and now I'm all sunburned! This is very uncomfortable, and I'm REALLY RED! :(

Hope this aloe stuff starts working soon!

Odysseus 2

I waited for you on the rocky outcroppings;

sitting on the rocks before the ships

as they sailed in and out of the bay.

And I planted a prayer in my heart

that I would find you at your haunting.

And you came.

I said a prayer to Jove that you would see me;

look up on the rock face

and notice I was there;

but your eyes did not stray in my direction.

I whispered your name onto the wind

and you heard my voice and came to me.

I could listen to you talk for hours,

Odysseus, my love;

but the tide called you away,

"I have sails to mend," you told me,

"But I will come back when I have them,

and sit with you a little longer."

You returned with sails for mending,

and I watched you from the rocky cliff,

watched you work and then

rest in the golden sand.

And you made me smile.

***

The cafe was dark, barely lit,

but you came and found me anyways,

and filled the room with light

by your presence, and your music.

And I listened, barely able

to hear the notes,

but it was beautiful because it was you.

And again, you saw me, Odysseus.

But you did not turn away

as I thought you would.

It would have been so easy to forget

that I was there.

But you came to me.

And you filled me with joy

at the sound of your voice;

and I felt so honored that you,

Odysseus, the king among men,

would choose to be in my presence;

Me, Penelope,

a girl of the kingdom, an acquaintance,

not even a friend or a lover.

And my heart sang the melody you played

in that little cafe.

And you made me smile.

Odysseus

You saw me and hid yourself behind a tree,

But I spied you peering out through the leaves.

You are a cunning one, Odysseus,

But I feel that you are soft behind that mind;

There is no threat in your presence.

But still I feel silly as a child,

And I fear I have made a fool of myself before you.

Please, Odysseus, forgive me

If I made you feel uncomfortable.

But there is something about you

That ties up my tongue;

That steals my thoughts.

And I rather fancy that I love it.

You catch me off guard

And make me vulnerable.

I am waiting for you amongst my other suitors

And my fate as of now is still in the air.

I am waiting for someone else to make a move

Because I am not ready to reveal my hand.

If you want me then I am ready for you,

But the choice is yours; you must make the first move.

Happy Easter!

HAPPY EASTER!!!!!!!!!!!!

Weekly Wodehouse #5

"Yo ho!" said Lord Ickenham. "In fact, I will go further. Yo frightfully ho," and it was plain to both Bean and Egg that they were in the presence of one who was sitting on top of the world and who, had he been wearing a hat, would have worn it on the side of his head. He looked, they thought, about as bumps-a-daisy as billy-o.

~P.G. Wodehouse

Good Friday

I was going to save this passage for tomorrow, but I won't be using the computer, TV, or video games tomorrow as part of my fasting on Good Friday (in addition to fasting from food), so I won't be able to post anything. But, this is one of my favorite Bible passages, and I really wanted to include it on here...

When they came to the place called The Skull, there they crucified Him and the criminals, one on the right and the other on the left. But Jesus was saying, "Father, forgive them; for they do not know what they are doing" And they cast lots, dividing up His garments among themselves. And the people stood by, looking on. And even the rulers were sneering at Him, saying, "He saved others; let Him save Himself if this is the Christ of God, His Chosen One."

The soldiers also mocked Him, coming up to Him, offering Him sour wine, and saying, "If You are the King of the Jews, save Yourself!"

Now there was also an inscription above Him, "THIS IS THE KING OF THE JEWS."

One of the criminals who were hanged there was hurling abuse at Him, saying, "Are You not the Christ? Save Yourself and us!"

But the other answered, and rebuking him said, "Do you not even fear God, since you are under the same sentence of condemnation? And we indeed are suffering justly, for we are receiving what we deserve for our deeds; but this man has done nothing wrong."

And he was saying, "Jesus, remember me when You come in Your kingdom!"

And He said to him, "Truly I say to you, today you shall be with Me in Paradise."

~Luke 23: 33-43